Wanting touch can be simple. Receiving it often is not.

The body may long for closeness and protect against it at the same time. It may say yes from hope and no from memory. It may freeze, perform, please, manage, disappear, or call itself fine while every part of it is working overtime.

I Want to Be Touched is the fourth book in the I AWAKE 7-day journey series. It is a guided return to the body as a living conversation, not a problem to fix or a project to optimize.

Across seven days, Camilla Wellton guides you through coming back to your body, discovering what safety actually feels like, learning the language of sensation, honoring your yes and your no, noticing the effort of being “fine,” letting pleasure be simple, and entering touch without abandoning yourself.

This is not a book about becoming sexually confident on command. Thank you, refrigerator magnet. It is much more intimate than that. It is about rebuilding trust with your own sensations.

Through reading, writing, body mapping, audio support, and the Return practice, I Want to Be Touched helps you notice the difference between performance and presence, availability and consent, pressure and desire, touch that happens to you and touch you can receive from within yourself.

This journey is for the reader who wants closeness but does not want to override the body to get it.
Because the goal is not to be touched at any cost.
The goal is to stay with yourself while contact becomes possible.

THIS IS NOT A BOOK

It is a guided sensual experience. Part reading, part writing, part listening, part drawing, and part embodied practice. This is not another self-help project to improve managing yourself.

It is a seven day guided journey for when you understand yourself intellectually, but still tense when touch and intimacy are offered.

This is about sensual trust. Not forcing yourself to open. Learning what helps your body stop guarding against contact.

Seven days to begin learning what safety actually feels like in your body so you can stop overriding yourself, stop performing calm, and feel more alive inside your own skin.

You won’t be asked to become more confident.

You’ll be invited to notice what happens before you go tight. You won’t be told to push past yourself. You’ll be shown what helps your body receive without disappearing.

EACH OF THE SEVEN DAYS INCLUDES

1 guided audio practice before you start reading to ground you in your body

1 daily theme to focus your attention and help you name the unspoken

3 prompts that match the daily theme with ample writing space within the book

1 body map for you to track your sensations in relation to the daily theme

1 guided audio practice to close the day with awareness and self compassion

The journey also includes an audio guided imaginal practice to be done after the 7 days for deeper integration as well as one longer guided audio practice you can experience anytime you need a gentle dose of sensual nervous system regulation.

This is the fourth guided sensual 7-day journey in the I AWAKE The Sensual hero’s journey™. It opens the second triad of the series, the realm of permission.

All audio is found on the Sensual institute private course platform.

Please note that this is the digital version. While you have full access to the audio, you will not be able to write directly inside this version nor draw directly on the body maps in each chapter.
You can however use the course platform note feature to both write your answers and download the body maps.

If you want the full body to pen experience, I recommend you buy the premium full color printed format.