Growing up in 1980, during a dark period of apartheid South Africa, isn't easy – but for a pastor's son at a Christian boarding school in a Coloured township, it's a constant balancing act between what he's taught and what he sees.

At home, school and in church, he learns about love, faith, and compassion. But outside, apartheid tells a different story – one of racist and class labels, boundaries and systemic oppression.

Not so innocently he navigates his beliefs, the multiple roles of his loving Dad-pastor-teacher, his life as an outsider at the boarding school, a first teenage romance, and several seemingly impossible choices in a highly political, volatile Cape Town.

Ehli begins to question everything: his place in the world, his father's teachings, and the cost of staying silent. In many ways, his story is timeless.

As a theologically, intellectually, and politically curious 15-year-old teenager, Ehli Abbott pours his heart into a private diary that is autobiographical and acutely reflective, creating a moving coming-of-age memoir about family, the meaning of life, and finding courage in the face of injustice.